Age in waiting

I am Young

I AM YOUNG!

I keep telling myself that but really, I don't believe it. Truly I am young. I'll be 25 in about 2 months and I have my whole life in front of me...

That's what "they" say. And I am trying to believe them. I haven't quite decided if I actually want to believe them, but I'll try. I'll try to follow the opinion of the majority.

I can blame my "skewed" view of my age vs reality on my family and the fact that they were married so young and started family's before they left their 20's. In my eyes that's normal, completely normal. What is really wrong with that?

Ironically for me I'm with a wonderful and amazing man who thinks that 28 is still young. Which it is. 28 is still young. I guess. At least for other people.

I don't know why waiting for life scares me so much. I want to commit to something in my life and I want it to be relationships first. People close to me always come first and I want to have that settled before I commit to a career or some other life decision. I just want that to be my foundation. I want to consider somebody else before I make a career move in another state. I don't have a problem revolving my life around somebody that I love. I do have a problem revolving my life around a job that I love and sacrificing my relationship.

Does it matter what age we get married? Does it matter what age we have kids? Does it matter what age we begin our career? Does it matter what age we travel the world?

Why do you have to be young or middle aged or old to do any of those things?

What's wrong with me wanting to do it all while I'm young? It's not like I'll run out of things to do.

But if it's KP I'm waiting for, I'll wait for him. I can't guarantee that I'll be patiently waiting...but I'll be waiting.